John ( Hou-Wei Wang )

The morning of July 26th, 2001, I will remember this

morning like yesterday. It hurtsso much to think about it. I was

out of town for a night and two days. When I returned home at

6:50 in the morning, I knew it was the time my mom should be

getting ready for work. From downstairs I can see her room

lights were on and

the door was closed. I went up to her room and called her a few

times. I knew she wasn't taking a shower because I didn't hear

the noise of the water. I knocked and opened the door. Shock

was the only word I can say. My mom was lying next to her bed

undressed. I called her name and got no response. I thought

she fainted. I told myself to be calm over and over. I got the

phone and dialed 911. My mind was blank. I made another

call to my grandmother in San Jose, and then I called my

girlfriend.

After arriving at the hospital, the doctor told me that my

mom suffered a very bad stroke and the chances were high

that she won't make it. At the same time, I felt shocked and my

mind was still blank. The next couple of days at CCU was a

breakdown. At CCU, I thought about everything. I grew up

with my mom for twenty years, and everyone knows she is the

most caring person. No matter how tired she was, she still

manages to have time to take care of others. My grandma and

I always told her to take a break, and her reply was always the

same, "I am not tired". She dedicated herself and her life to the

Church.

I feel so bad. I let my mom worry so much about me. Every

time I go out, she always told me to be careful and come home

early. I'm not going to lie. I hang out with a click. I have a lot of

friends, and it worried my mom when I went out with a group

of people. I have been playing too much and did nothing but

play. I'm sorry to waste all her money. She doesn't even make

enough to get by. Her savings is all she had to back it up. A

single mom with a big house, and all those bills to pay. And I

only

had some part time jobs. But recently I have been doing

good. I stay home most of the time and mom was happy about it.

One thing I feel extra proud that I did for my mom was

completing high school. I am not a school person, and I

dropped out of school before. But my mom has given me so

much support.

It was so hard for me to go back, but I did and I got a diploma

for her.

I don't know what else to write. It just hurts me so much

when I think about her. We all know how nice and caring my

mom was............

"Mom, I shall stand tall and be strong like a man, the way you

want me to be. I'm happy that Jesus took you to heaven. You

are an angel for us and for Jesus. Take a long vacation now

mom and I will see you again in heaven. I love you mommy and

I miss you everyday. Life is so fragile. Words cannot

describe how I feel. Due to death we are apart, but our mind

shall communicate in heart. I love you mommy."